It’s been a whirlwind the past few weeks.
I found out I have DCIS. Which is a form of non invasive breast cancer. Definitely not the worst thing ever but it’s still scary. Instead of celebrating my 21st birthday like a normal person, I’m getting a lumpectomy.
My family and My ex are the only people who know. Sometimes I regret telling him but I don’t have any friends to go to. He still puts his work over me. Which at this point doesn’t surprise me. I knew nothing would change but I guess a part of me hoped he would want to spend more time with me.
Now my main focus is getting through this semester and going home so I can be with my mom. I miss her a lot. And now that we both have breast cancer, I kind of feel like we’re in this together. It just sucks being 3 hours away at school where I have no one. I’ve recently been pretty sick which has made everything worse. I’ve spent most of my time in bed trying to get better so I can go to work every night. Occasionally I feel up to going to class but not for long. I’m so behind on my schoolwork. I just can’t wait until all of this is over. I need a fresh start. I never thought I would have cancer. For some reason I just thought it was for older people. I mean, I knew anyone could get it. Just not me. You always think you’re invincible until God shows you otherwise.
Anyway, I’m not sure the next time I’m going to post anything but I’ll talk to you then.